gus wore his puddle boots and bomber jacket i found with tags iat a thrift store and fiorella slept on my chest in the ergo the entire time. steve and gus chased waves while i collected pearlescent seafoam seashells and wrote the names of each of my loves in the sand.
fiorella. steve. gus.
i found a smooth white rock buried in the sand and handed it to gus. he loved it so much and was so sweet telling me 'thank you mama' over and over with such pure joy. he has carried it with him everywhere. at night he sleeps with it and every morning when he comes into our room he is carrying it in his hands. it's begun to smell like him, too.
i tell him to be gentle and he holds it safely. it is warm from his hands, so warm that my own hands glow when i hold it.