mother's day and my birthday were one day apart this year. when my husband asked what i wanted, i told him.i just wanted to lay on a blanket, anywhere, with them. i wanted to lay and feel the sun cup my eyes like a blindfold and i wanted to watch my baby wobble through the grass talking to the sky and i wanted to watch my handsome husband in the light.he gave me just that, and a giant fiddle leaf fig and two rings with their names etched into the middle and a surprise dinner to the best sushi of my life. he and gus also woke me up with a little bouquet of garden petals and it felt so good to be alive, to be theirs.
like, i am the woman in their lives. i'm the one they both seek, both need. i am deeply aware of this cyclopean blessing, much like the core of the earth to our life.
much like the moon.
a carrot uprooted from the ground.
it's everything. it's all there is.