slow to react,
(the list goes on. and on. and on)
and in return i offer obedience. and thankfulness. and all the things i should probably be already but am not.
just today, while i was in the middle of doing the dishes, augustus opened the fridge and down spilled the carton of apple juice and large container of strawberries and off came his diaper and down dribbled his pee. twice.
no, this wasn't that difficult a moment. in fact, these are the quintessential blueprints to the moments of our days. it was just another moment of motherhood that i tuck away somewhere where i keep all the days of our lives, and keep going.
and there's a lot of messy, a lot of the time in that somewhere place.
so, right in the middle of doing the dishes and running to grab a new diaper and mopping up yet another spill, i just asked god to lend me just a little grace.
a little brave.
a little gentle.
a little patience.
and while it didn't come delivered in that moment, it came a bit later, after i had cried a bit. after the lipstick had already been smeared on the wall. after he ran out of the shower we were taking and just before his sixth attempt at nap time.
it came as i was slicing a pineapple i picked up on sunday morning because one, who doesn't love pineapple and two, pineapple. and i looked out my window and i said to myself,
wow, thank you for this. for all of this. for this fruit. for this window. for this chance to be at home and go through the rough days and the good days with Your child. for having a mom who i can text and ground me back down and for my favorite sweater that made me feel really really cozy and for the new kale that's sprouting and for the baby's breath on our table that makes me smile. and for the love note my husband left on top of my coffee cup this morning with a heart that had hands.
it came right then and there and it was just enough of a living prayer that i think i could have ever unknowingly asked for.
it was just enough of the very thing i needed.
/this woman and what she's doing. wow.
/ even more reasons to love kevin spacey (big fans over here)
/made this over the weekend and will be making this all summer to add to juices and whatnot